Sunday, May 31, 2009

The Tides of Change

When we picked up our lives and headed north after leaving a place of destruction I knew a few things would permanently change for us. After surviving the onslaught of an angry God, Zeus, Messiah, Mother Nature, we had a few things to think about. One of these things would be my employment. After getting shit on by people I trusted being in a work environment seemed challenging. I didn't want to befriend anyone, I didn't want anyone knowing anything about me, my life, my situation. I was the poster child for anti-social awkwardness and if you know anything about me it's that I love to socialize, or used to.

So though I tried finding a job in this new area with this new understanding that too many people are not actually nice and really don't have anything better to do than ruin lives was proving difficult. Plus, I had this gut feeling that I wouldn't need to be under the man ever again and that just so happened to be right.

It was a matter of time and it came faster than expected but it was an opportunity we couldn't resist. For months prior we have been mentally preparing ourselves for a moment such like the one that occurred and I feel wholeheartedly this is the right step to a successful future, finally.

I think I've been on the brink of my quarter life crisis. At my age my companions are graduating and starting a path down their career while I'm stuck here working dead end jobs for little over minimum wage. The problem was I just wasn't sure what I wanted to do, where was I supposed to go? What was this path I was going to take? Am I destined to be a poor person scraping by month to month? I never saw myself in that sort of position for long but was never in a hurry to fix it. I just knew when the time was right it would hit, I was just getting worried that maybe the time had passed me by when I wasn't looking.

Then the proverbial door swung wide open and here I am. Ready to embark on a new journey full of many unknowns. The ultimate challenge to make it and by God I am so ready to make it. I've got that fire deep within that's ready to prove to myself, my biggest critic, that I'm not a deadbeat, a minimum wage for life kind of girl, a paycheck to paycheck liver (haha). So we're starting a business. The grand opening is this Friday with a special Wine and Cheese event.

I am all things nervous, excited, confident, and nervous some more. This big leap has been calling out to me and I cannot wait to see what the future holds. I smell success.


Maggie May said...

Wonderful. I hope it is all you desire.

cybeel said...

so happy 4 you. Hope you'll get whatever you expect. Good luck !

Kern said...

Thank you both for your well wishes! I am hoping for a successful endeavor!!!